morality...

fidelity blues ... a posting a few days back evoked a few email responses...just some more perspectives..morality as an enforced adherence parameter is what suffocates..natural emergences are spontaneous and never burdensome...sadly, most institutionalised intimacy falls into the trap of "living upto projected ideals" of how they are meant to be. Conceptual adherence is what becomes burdensome. "Love thy neighbour" sounds beautiful..but in a situation of so much low self esteem and self hate, it becomes tough to actualize it. Rather than pursue a projected ideal and try to reach there, I prefer starting at my reality space..see that it is not there...from that reality, one can grow...

we would like to be so many things; but we are not that...we "try" to "care", we "try" to "love"...

i find that effort pathetic...a struggle...without any results deep within.

i would rather see that i am not able to care, not able to love...an understanding in awareness then enables love to "happen"...within us...a fountainhead that flows through activities....it is not activity dependent, it is not people specific; love is something that just is...an intrinsic part of us..it is like a river, flooding all in its wake... a state of being...

we still may "like" certain people, "like" to share special spaces with them; ...perfectly fine to feel an attraction and desire to share space...love has to manifest in that space..

the state of love manifests when we "relate" from the core of the beings; the domain of the unchangeable....aspects of "liking" can change, mutate...love can live through those...it is an underlying aspect....fundamental to existence...a state of being....