experiencing...as it is...

experience has been my best teacher...but an increased "ability" to experience has been a critical driver of my explores...i have been able to see the limitations of my abilities , given the conditionings and mental formations that tend to color it...the process of "seeing" has evolved...at one level , one sees mechanically , dead....at a different level, one is more "aware" as one sees....however, the mind associations come into play...valuation, judgement etc , all born in comparisons with existing contents of the mind....i was able to break through into a very enriched level of seeing ; being able to also see my mind constructs at play while watching an event....then , i started "experiencing" things just as they were, breaking through layers of "what it could be through my perceptions"

.....it is a continually , evolving process..as i learn to see as i watch....

and i bumped into another "discovery".....when we just "experience", irrespective of the nature or content of the event, the process of "experiencing" is intrinsically accompanied by "bliss". in actual experiencing, one is "liberated" of the constructs of the mind...then, we "respond" , we do not "react"......to events....

also, "teachers" as in "chronic repetitive crippling patterns, that seemed to like me very much....!!" , dropped off when i "saw" them this way...it is like a teacher moving on after we have learnt what is to be learnt of him/her....as i no longer required for my growth at that moment....

i had read in innumerable texts and tenets about joy and bliss.....but it remained a mirage for me, a "projected ideal", always elusive. when i focussed on the process of "seeing" and it's related capacities, rather than on the content of my "seeing", its made a sea-change.

needless to add, am still in learning processes....sharing as i learn....not from dominative ego-centres...discoveries are so awesome, they make you realize how little you really know, naturally makes you humble...incapacitates pride , rather than enforce a modesty...