At the end of winning a rat race, we are still a rat.

October 27, 2006

sporadic postings...

diwali and post is seeing a lot of visitors and guests at home..hectic , but great aunt and uncle are visiting too from australia..lot of family catch-up and party time...

for those who may be wondering, hence the sporadic blogging...

October 20, 2006

October 19, 2006

is enlightenment possible through intent?

This beautiful perspective is excerpted from insights of Dr Christian Opitz, presented in

Sri Bhagavan emphazises helplessness, that we cannot change on our own. What about the idea that we can create our own reality through intention?

All human beings are born as emotional beings, without the ability to form conscious intentions. The main portion of neurological pathways in the brain is built in the first three months of life, long before an intentional mind is formed. Various schools of developmental psychology agree that 90% of our psychological patterns are developed in the first years of life, when direct emotional experience without a rational perspective or intention is the dominant life experience. So whatever conscious intentions we formulate later in life to create change, these are always coming from a deeper unconscious resource. All our conscious intentions are fueled by largely unconscious motivations and those motivations cannot be changed through intention. Unconscious motivations are the storehouse of trauma, of limiting ideas about life, of self-sabotage and they came into existence long before we ever could formulate goals and intentions. Therefore no amount of intention can ever change that deeper part of our psyche that determines our life experience much more then the surface of conscious thoughts.

If I am aware of limiting concepts in my mind or trauma in my unconscious, why can I not change these things, for example through positive affirmations?

According to renowned cellular biologist Bruce Lipton, the conscious mind can process 2000 bits of information per second. The unconscious however is processing four billion bits per second. That is a two million to one ratio. If you want to change an unconscious belief or limitation through conscious affirmation, it is like arguing with two million people who are convinced that you are wrong. You might as well try to reverse a tidal wave by shooting at it with a water pistol. Another important factor is also the motivation for using affirmations or any other modality to change. For example, if a person feels like a loser in life and then wants to change that feeling by repeating affirmations of success, the very desire to do so comes from unconscious wounds that where also at the root of blocking success, not from a free conscious choice independent of these wounds. The attempt to change the problem always comes from the problem and is thus an extension of it, not the way to a solution. The brain center associated with deep emotional motivations in the unconscious is the limbic system and the center associated with volition is the frontal cortex. New research form Germany suggests that the limbic system constantly feeds input into the frontal cortex, but there is very little input coming back. This shows how unconscious feelings influence our conscious mind, but the conscious mind is not capable of influencing unconscious feelings.

But I read about studies that show that people can for example improve skills like shooting a basketball just thorugh visualisation wihtout actually practicing the skill. Does this not prove the power of the mind to create change?

One study showed that people who only visualized successful basketball free throw shooting improved by 23% over six weeks, whereas people actually practicing free throw shooting improves by 24%. This study is often cited by those who promote the idea that the mind can be used to change human life. But what did the people in that study actually change? A simple mechanical skill of the sensomotoric nervous system that was competely irrelevant to their happiness or inner freedom. Such a mechanical skill is indeed easy to change with conscious intention. Changing one’s fundamental life experience, how we feel about ourselves and life, what traumas we carry and live out, these are infinitely more complex than shooting a basketball. Changing who we are and what life is in our perception cannot be changed by the conscious mind. The conscious mind is itself a sub-reality of our life experience, and a relatively small one compared to the unconscious and various genetic and collective factors. As such, the conscious mind is powerless to change the greater reality of which it is only a part.

October 18, 2006

Abundant wishes....

Traditionally, the festival of lights, Diwali is celebrated over a period of five days. Each one of the five days has its unique connotation, ceremonies and legends associated.

What is Dhanteras? The every first day of Diwali celebrations is Dhanteras. The festival of Dhanteras is also referred to as Dhantryaodashi. Dhanteras marks the beginning of Diwali celebrations.

When is Dhanteras celebrated? Dhanteras is celebrated on the thirteenth day of the month of Ashwin i.e. two days before Diwali.

Why is Dhanteras celebrated? Dhanteras is celebrated to seek blessings of Goddess Laxmi, the goddess of wealth. In the amalgamation of Dhan teras 'Dhan' means wealth. People and specially the rich community celebrate Dhan teras festival widely.

How is Dhanteras celebrated?

Dhanteras is regarded as an auspicious occasion to buy some gold or silver articles. Many people shop for new utensils for their household.

Dhanteras festival is ideal time for setting up businesses, commencing new projects, housewarming, deciding wedding dates, buying cars and jewellery.

Today, exchange of Dhanteras gifts is extremely popular. Special gifts for Dhanteras flood the markets.

What is the legend behind Dhanteras?

The legend behind Dhanteras is centred on the sixteen-year-old son of King Hima. As per his horoscope he was fated to breathe his last on the fourth day of his marriage owing to snakebite. On the appointed day his wife illuminated the house with numerous lamps and placed a heap of gold and silver coins and ornaments in front of their bedroom. All through the night she sang songs and told stories.

The lights of the lamps, and the dazzle of the coins and ornaments blinded the god of death, Yam devta, who had come as a serpent. He spent the entire night in the heap listening to the sweet sounding songs before leaving peacefully the next morning. Thus, the wife succeeded in saving the life of her husband. This explains, why the Dhan teras festival is also referred to as "Yamadeepdaan".

excerpted from

Om Sreem Kreem Aum Kubera Lakshmi
Kamala Darinyai Dhanakarsinyai Swaha...

Om Yaksha Rajaya Vidhmahe
Alakadisaaya Dhimahe
Tanno Kubera Prachodayaat...

Om Yakshaya Kuberaya Vaishravanaaya
Dhana Dhanyathi Pathaye
Dhana Dhaanya Samruddhime
Dehi Thapaya Swahaha...

May an abundance of abundance flood your lives on the sacred occasion of Dhanteras...

October 14, 2006

citizens of the womb...

i don't need to tell you
what this is about
you just start on the inside
and work your way out
we are all polylingual
but some of us pretend
there's virtue in relying
on not trying to understand
we're all citizens of the womb
before we subdivide
into sexes and shades
this side
that side
and i don't need to tell you
what this is about
you just start on the inside
and work your way out

- excerpts from the lyrics of a song by Ani Difranco...

read the above on blogosphere...moved me deeply...especially, the line referring to us as citizens of the womb..

October 09, 2006

incredible...from my inbox...

The Gift of Total Responsibility

Two years ago, I heard about a therapist in Hawaii who cured a complete ward of criminally insane patients--without ever seeing any of them. The psychologist would study an inmate's chart and then look within himself to see how he created that person's illness. As he improved himself, the patient improved.

When I first heard this story, I thought it was an urban legend. How could anyone heal anyone else by healing himself? How could even the best self-improvement master cure the criminally insane? It didn't make any sense. It wasn't logical, so I dismissed the story.

However, I heard it again a year later. I heard that the therapist had used a Hawaiian healing process called Ho'oponopono. I had never heard of it, yet I couldn't let it leave my mind. If the story was at all true, I had to know more. I had always understood "total responsibility" to mean that I am responsible for what I think and do. Beyond that, it's out of my hands. I think that most people think of total responsibility that way. We're responsible for what we do, not what anyone else does--but that may be wrong.

The Hawaiian therapist who healed those mentally ill people would teach me an advanced new perspective about total responsibility. His name is Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len. We probably spent an hour talking on our first phone call. I asked him to tell me the complete story of his work as a therapist.

He explained that he worked at Hawaii State Hospital for four years.That ward where they kept the criminally insane was dangerous. Psychologists quit on a monthly basis. The staff called in sick a lot or simply quit. People would walk through that ward with their backs against the wall, afraid of being attacked by patients. It was not a pleasant place to live, work, or visit.

Dr. Len told me that he never saw patients. He agreed to have an office and to review their files. While he looked at those files, he would work on himself. As he worked on himself, patients began to heal.

After a few months, patients that had to be shackled were being allowed to walk freely,' he told me. 'Others who had to be heavily medicated were getting off their medications. And those who had no chance of ever being released were being freed.' I was in awe.' Not only that,' he went on, 'but the staff began to enjoy coming to work.

Absenteeism and turnover disappeared. We ended up with more staff than we needed because patients were being released, and all the staff was showing up to work. Today, that ward is closed.

This is where I had to ask the million dollar question: What were you doing within yourself that caused those people to change?

'I was simply healing the part of me that created them,' he said. I didn't understand. Dr. Len explained that total responsibility for your life means that everything in your life - simply because it is in your life - is your responsibility. In a literal sense the entire world is your creation.

If you take complete responsibility for your life, then everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or in any way experience is your responsibility because it is in your life. This means that terrorist activity, the president, the economy or anything you experience and don't like--is up for you to heal. They don't exist, in a manner of speaking, except as projections from inside you. The problem isn't with them, it's with you, and to change them, you have to change you.

I know this is tough to grasp, let alone accept or actually live. Blame is far easier than total responsibility, but as I spoke with Dr. Len, I began to realize that healing for him and in h'oponopono means loving yourself.

If you want to improve your life, you have to heal your life. If you want to cure anyone, even a mentally ill criminal you do it by healing you.

I asked Dr. Len how he went about healing himself. What was he doing, exactly, when he looked at those patients' files?

I just kept saying, 'I'm sorry' and 'I love you' over and over again, he explained.

That's it? 'That's it.'

Turns out that loving yourself is the greatest way to improve yourself, and as you improve yourself, you improve your world.

Let me give you a quick example of how this works: one day, someone sent me an email that upset me. In the past I would have handled it by working on my emotional hot buttons or by trying to reason with the person who sent the nasty message.

This time, I decided to try Dr. Len's method. I kept silently saying, 'I'm sorry' and 'I love you,' I didn't say it to anyone in particular. I was simply evoking the spirit of love to heal within me what was creating the outer circumstance.

Within an hour I got an e-mail from the same person. He apologized for his previous message. Keep in mind that I didn't take any outward action to get that apology. I didn't even write him back. Yet, by saying 'I love you,' I somehow healed within me what was creating him.

I later attended a Ho'oponopono workshop run by Dr. Len. He's now 70 years old, considered a grandfatherly shaman, and is somewhat reclusive.

He praised my book, and told me that as I improve myself, my book's vibration will raise, and everyone will feel it when they read it. In short, as I improve, my readers will improve.

'What about the books that are already sold and out there?' I asked.

'They aren't out there,' he explained, once again blowing my mind with his mystic wisdom. 'They are still in you.' In short, there is no out there. It would take a whole book to explain this advanced technique with the depth it deserves.

Suffice It to say that whenever you want to improve anything in your life, there's only one place to look: inside you. When you look, do it with love. ~Author Unknown

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October 08, 2006

digital commandments...

"Excuse me, sir."

"Is that you again, Moses?"

"I'm afraid it is, sir."

"What is it this time, Moses. More computer problems?"

"How did you guess?"

"I don't have to guess, Moses. Remember?"

"Oh, yeah. I forgot."

"Tell me what you want, Moses."

"But you already know. Remember?"


"Sorry, sir."

"Well, go ahead, Moses. Spit it out!"

"Well, I have a question, Sir. You know those ten things you sent me?"

"You mean the Commandments, Moses?"

"That's it. I was wondering if they were important."

"What do you mean 'were important, Moses? Of course, they are important. Otherwise I wouldn't have sent them to you."

"Well, sorry, but I lost them. I could say the dog ate them, but of course you would see right through that."

"What do you mean 'you lost them! Are you trying to tell me you didn't save them, Moses?"

"No, sir. I forgot."

"You should always save, Moses."

"Yeah, I know. You told me that before. I was going to, but I forgot. I did send them to some people before I lost them though."

"And did you hear back from any of them?"

"You already know I did."

"What about the one guy who said he never uses 'shalt not'. Can he change the words a little bit?"

"Yes, Moses. As long as he doesn't change the meaning."

"And what about the guy who thought your stance was a little harsh and recommended calling them the Ten Suggestions, or letting people pick one or two to try for a while?"

"Moses, I'll act like I didn't hear that."

"I think that means, 'no'. Well, what about the guy who said I was scamming him?"

"I think that is spamming, Moses."

"Oh, yeah. I e-mailed him back and told him I don't even eat that stuff, and I have no idea how you can send it to someone through a computer."

"And what he did say?"

"You know what he said. He used Your name in vain. You don't think he might have sent me one of those plagues, and that's the reason I lost those ten things, do you?"

"They're called viruses, Moses."

"Whatever! This computer stuff is just too much for me. Can we just go back to those stone tablets? It was hard on my back taking them out and reading them each day, but I never lost them."

"We'll do it the new way, Moses."

"I was afraid you would say that, sir."

"Moses, what did I tell you to do if you messed up?"

"You told me to hold up this rat and stretch it out toward the computer."

"It's a mouse, Moses. Mouse! Mouse! And did you do that?"

"No, I decided to try the technical support first. After all, who knows more about this stuff than you, and I really like your hours. By the way, sir, did Noah have two of these mice on the ark?"

"No, Moses."

"One other thing. Why didn't you name them frogs instead of mice, because didn't you tell me the thing they sit on is a pad?"

"I didn't name them, Moses. Man did, and you can call yours a frog if you want to."

"Oh, that explains it. Kind of like Adam, huh, sir? I bet some woman told him to call it a mouse. After all, wasn't it a woman who named one of the computers Apple?"

"Say good night, Moses."

"Wait a minute, sir. I am stretching out the mouse, and it seems to be working. Yes, a couple of the ten things have come back."

"Which ones are they, Moses?"

"Let's see. 'Thou shalt not steal from any grave an image and 'Thou shalt not uncover thy neighbor's wife.'

"Turn the computer off, Moses. I'm sending you another set of stone tablets. How does 'Same Day Air' sound?"

October 05, 2006


My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?

- Charles M. Schulz

also saw....

had heard a lot about LRM and more than one reason to see it ; vidya being a local rocks...

October 04, 2006

maine gandhi ko nahin maara...

an awesome it's theme and performances..lot of beautiful, creative things happening in indian celluloid space these days....

October 03, 2006

learning : a repost...

recently celebrated "saraswati pooja", a lovely concept in prayer; an expression of gratitude for all the wisdom and knowledge that flows into our lives from myriad sources.mebbe one should add "blogging" to the endless list of media and sources that fulfil the dream of the rigveda; "Let noble thoughts come to us from every side".The universe, the original multi-media classroom...fascinating, awesome,inspiring, disciplining, self-regulatory and so much more...we are all learners and teachers at the same time as a certain Mr Bach had expressed...
Let this day be a dedication to the spirit of "learning"....
some learnings I have had on "learning" itself"
.never pre-judge, pre-suppose.
.be aware of the contexts and the assumptions.
.every speck in creation is a potential teacher.
.our perceptions and mental formations can inhibit genuine learning.
.learning is an attitude in humbleness.
.teachers persist in our lives until we learn what we have chosen to learn.Hence , we observe repetitive patterns recurring time and again.
.unlearning is a critical part of learning.
.the process of learning is joyful, a voyage in discovery ; not self-condemnatory or guilt-provoking.
.................and so much more.....

October 02, 2006

relating..conceptual or otherwise...

This post is triggered by various contemporary shares/discussions in blogspace.

Let us see what happens when 2 people connect.Each comes in with his/her own idealogy/value positionality and operates from there.Values are acquired concepts and do not come with any absoluteness.It is perfectly ok to find comfort in a set of values, but it is important to remember it's contextuality to our conditionings.

Sometimes, a cyclonic attraction overpowers 2 individuals and they share a lustful moment.Nothing wrong in that either as long as one is able to see it as it is.It is an addressal of a personal need and a happening in a moment where 2 individual needs synchronize in a shared space.

Where is love in all this context?

To me , it is a state beyond the realm of any conceptual positionalities as well as the realm of personal need.It is just a state of being that floods all in it's wake. Thus, it is not person or activity specific.It can express itself in myriad ways including the domain of physical and emotional intimacy.

While not degrading lustful desire or positionalities, love is total in it's acceptance of the other,not conditionally dependant on the presence or absence of certain activities, and a relating paradigm from our cores, the domain of the unchangeable as different from the domain of conditioned spaces.One can still relate in a need-based context but with an awareness and acceptance of our need as the driving force, rather than any masked image that comes forth.

when we operate out of this fountainhead, love is a happening, not a planned or a thought-activated enterprise.

an icon of integrity....

October 01, 2006

a lil bit of love....

some movies touch you...

Check out I like it a lot....